world, i’m available

i spent this last month in a peaceful house in the mountains trying to figure out my life. thing is, i am now officially a social welfare case waiting to happen. in november i received my last unemployment insurance check (in switzerland you receive 70% of your previous salary during 400 workdays, then you’re out). so now i am living off my savings until they run out and then i will have to apply for social welfare…
needless to say iys not looking rosy. thats why i decided to take a month to try and figure out what i want to do next.

it was great. i re-started to meditate, read books, take walks, eat healthy. i found peace. and i did think about my life and my goals in life lots. i decided that the most important thing is and will always be to find inner peace. but in regards to my “career” i am even more confuseled than i was before. i dont have a fucking clue what i should do…

it did not help, that the slight hope i had nurtured of get our project wikiCH funded by sitemapping.ch (the swiss governmental fund for media art projects) was crushed brutally with a negative response just this last week…

so a month went by and feel even more at a loss about my professional future than before.

whats wrong with me?

most people are driven to push forward in their careers, because they are unhappy with their lifes and/or because of their ambitions. well, with me the problem certainly is, that i am neither very unhappy with my life nor am i a very ambitious person. in fact, my life is quite great as it is. i am never ever bored, quite the opposite actually. i enjoy having time to do my own projects. actually the only problem is that these projects (blogs, media art, dj-ing) dont make money. there is absolutely no existential angst driving me to seek out a career. but the money on my savings account will run out and then things will get existential.

the other thing is, and i hope this does not sound too arrogant, that i think that with a man of my many skills and talents the job should find me and not i have to find it.
in all humility, i am good, i am intelligent, i have much experience in many different areas. so use me! i’m available. what are you waiting for, world?
its not like i am not looking for a job. but since i cant seem to find one, maybe we have to switch this around here and the job should find me. that might work…

how do you sell ideas?

i have great ideas. but it has always been my problem, that i have no clue of how to sell them.

i have all these ideas all written down, lined out, drawn up. but i am completely stuck on how to sell these to the right people. selling ideas is risky business. i mean, if i just send the company an email, they’ll respond with a friendly “yes, its a great idea, that we have been developping ourselves for years now”, just lying through their teeth, and in that way elegantely appropriating the idea. i never even thought this was possible until a “friend” pulled this one on me… so, i need a manager… maybe i should hire a manager? yeah, right… ugh

for now i prolonged my stay in the mountains and after this wknd in bern i will go hide up there again. maybe inspiration will hit me… what do they say? hope dies last.

About Jan Zuppinger

Jan Zuppinger has been writing this blog since 2002. He likes to grow vegetables. He likes to eat them too. He has opinions on everything, but sadly no one cares. Jan Zuppinger is not joking, just joking, he is joking, just joking, he's not joking. *click.