i am back in bern after lil over a month, 40 nights, spent in our house in the swiss mountains; this was actually my last time there /cry – but that’s a whole ‘nother story (i am giving it up, very sad, but have to, for 13 different reasons, yet still it is/was my favorite place in the whole wide world, i went to vacation there ever since i can remember, the house was built 1964, i got here 2 years before that, but spent those abroad, wonderful beautiful peaceful house, best best times ever, so grateful, and now selling it, omg, biggest mistake of my life?).
again, as usual, i had a fantastic time semi-offline. the first few days can be kinda tough, but then i actually enjoy to observe how things start to slow down. quickly i find my routines and start to do a number of things, daily, that i don’t usually seem to find time for: taking long baths every morning, meditating for 30 minutes, going for a walk, reading books – whole or in parts (hoeullebecq: la possibilite d’une ile – johnson: everything bad is good for you – curtis: distraction: being human in the digital age – batelle: the search: how google and its rivals rewrote the rules of business and transformed our culture – hunter s. thompson: hell’s angels – smith: white teeth – make: 1-7 [-4]; in other words: none of these books are actually new, they just had stacked up on my books-to-read pile over this last year or so), working on a dj mix (not quite happy with it, might never release it), taking a sauna. ahhh. this is the life.
and the single biggest reason why i was able to do all these things is because i was semi-offline. in the house i only had a 56K (in theory! most times it was 33K actually) internet connection and swiss phone companies still don’t offer a flat rate. on the contrary, they charge me an arm and a leg for this crap connection. for an average of 1.5 – 2 hours of daily internet, most of it between 22:00 – 8:00 = the low rate period, i will have to pay 65.- which is much more than i pay monthly for my broadband.
so now i am back to “always on” and kinda nervous about it. i really hope i will be able to keep some of the good habits. wish me luck and discipline as i try to structure my day to include more down times. i do not want to get back into staring at this bloody screen all day long. i certainly don’t want to play as much WoW as i did before, that’s just nuts.
as far as blogging i think i might suffer from burn-out syndrome. it is quite possible that i might have overdone it in the past. and for what? it did not earn me one dime nor score me any jobs. i did get some comments, and i appreciate every single one of them. but on the whole i receive about 23’000 x more spam than comments. and most importantly, i did not miss blogging at all during my semi-offline time; something that had been different in other years. so it might be time to let this silly blog peter out. we’ll just have to see how it goes.
